Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Remember that time I got pregnant and nobody gave a crap? (and then the time it happened after that?)

I hate how jealous I get when I hear about people's baby showers and look at newborn pictures.

Somehow I have grown to hate happy families. Luckily for me, I run this place like a Saudi prison...

Now that that's out of the way, I will tell you about the little circle I am currently running in:

*My psych (who I hate, but I hate all of them as a rule) wants me to go to therapy
*I do not want to go to therapy, as it is useless. I do, however, what my psych to SHUT UP, so I try to get into therapy
*Nobody is taking new patients/taking patients with my insurance/taking insurance, period
*FREAKING OUT ensues (not mine), over me still not being in therapy
*School starts. I am busy almost every single waking hour of the day. Literally.
*I get a referral for therapy at someplace or another.

1) I HAVE NO TIME FOR THIS SHIT
1)I DO NOT WANT TO GO, ANYWAY

All I need to do is clone myself and the problem is solved. They will not stop harping on me, and it's stressing me out.

Also, my office is getting audited next week. The same week as finals! More stress.

Did I mention stress is a huge trigger for bipolar freakouts?

This month sucks.

2 comments:

  1. Hi
    I found you because we both have bipolar in our interests. Not sure its an interest as such but its something I do all the time.
    I had a few therapy courses that didn't do much but then had CBT, I found it pretty good with my tablets it works and my therapist, well I didn't hate him. Maybe give it a try?
    :0)

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  2. Hi! I have been trying to get into CBT for a long time, it's just been a disaster trying to find a provider. I am meeting with someone Monday so hopefully I can find something that won't make me more miserable.

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